Sometimes, I wonder if I'm ever going to be with the right person. I wonder if I'm being treated the way I deserve or not. I wonder about the past  and the future. I wonder about the people in my life and if I'd mean what they mean to me. Sometimes, I wonder about how people turn out to be so two-faced. I wonder if I can ever trust people completely.  I wonder if I can stop wearing a mask. I wonder if I'll ever be able to be free with anyone and everyone. I wonder if I'll ever be able to speak out for myself. I wonder if I'll ever learn to say no. I wonder if I'll ever be able to stand up for myself and not let people take advantage of me. Sometimes, I wonder too much about people, the world and myself. I spend hours staring at the ceiling or elsewhere, creating all those fragments in my mind or simply taking a trip to the past. I like to wonder and ponder over the future even though I know its never what I expect it to be. Sometimes its worse, sometimes better. I wonder if anyone really thinks of me like I do. Sometimes, I wonder if I'll ever be able to create the same kind of bond that I had with some people that either too far away or have rather just drifted apart. I wonder if I'll ever be that smart. Sometimes, I wonder about all that God has created and blessed me with. I wonder about people and I wonder about the world. All this wonder leaves me overwhelmed. It's either too good or too sad. The world around is sad, people are strange but life is supposedly beautiful.

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