Realisation

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Since I was a kid I believed that this world is a beautiful place and that no soul could possibly be a 'bad person'. I grew up believing that all human beings shared the same amount of happiness and sorrows in their lives, which meant if I had a proportion of 20% happiness so did the rest of the people. I believed that, that God had distributed happiness and sorrows equally in proportion to everyone in this world because that's how it would be fair to everyone. I thought that was the secret balance of life.

But then, this thing happened ...

I grew up..

I grew up and now I know that all what I'd thought about as a child were all hopeful fantasies and wishful thoughts I had made myself to believe. Now that I'm faced with what actually happens around the world and how people with no hearts can actually survive is just disturbing. Its disturbing to see people suffer so much, its disheartening to see souls that show no humanity and the sad part is, it's always been like this. Now I know that my little theory of 'equal proportion' of sorrows and happiness 'distributed' was almost like my little myth I believed in. I now know that bad people do exist, two faced people exist and heartless people exist too. I've almost come to believe that humanity somewhere has lost its meaning and now resides as an unknown word that nobody knows of, a word that somewhere lost its essence.

I switch on the T.V and I see awful events like rape, murder, hate, corruption, wars, etc that supposedly occur on a daily basis in some part of the world or the other. It almost kills me and it's disturbing because my picture of the world has begun to change and it is indeed  a sad feeling when something you thought was beautiful, has actually not been that beautiful after all. It's like looking through a distant view and picturing it to be so perfect and when you actually face it, it's not what it looked like from far.

I've come to this realisation that my idea of equal proportion of happiness and sorrows distributed to everyone was obviously wrong but we all know that happiness and sorrows are not non-existent. They do exist and maybe not in equal proportions but they are a part of one big thing. Our lives. I like to relate that to baking. Now that I'm old enough I do know how to bake and I know that cake is not a mixture of flour and sugar alone. It's actually this entire list of ingredients that differ in measurement, put together to build something as a whole. Sometimes, I like to relate life to such unrelated concepts that actually do make sense. That's why I choose to relate it to something like baking. All thepain, sorrow, happiness, gain, suffrage, loss, ecstasy,mirth, melancholy, are the sum ingredients of our lives, maybe not in the same proportion but they're all a part of something  as a whole.

So I'm still watching T.V and out of this inner frustration I change channels and I can view something different, something unexpected. I face to the screen and what I see is people that care. People that are selflessly helping other people, without the involvement of any hate or corruption. I see donations, I see people helping farmers, I see people build schools for education, I see people lighting candles in the loss of someone they barely knew, I see people fighting for justice, I see people donating blankets to homeless people, I see AIDS campaigns, I see people selflessly helping different people and  I see smiling orphans who've been given love. I see hope and I see that gleam of humanity that is somewhere still there. I realise that the word hasn't lost its essence. It's still there and with this realisation I smile, I smile and tell myself that somewhere, there's always some hope and maybe I, you and a lot of us could be a part of that hope.


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6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Indeed it is heart wrenching to see our society in such ruins and in a sorry state. Really nice post, puts the stuff out in a beautiful manner. Cheers!

Safiyyah said...

This is so true and so beautifully written and so nice to read :) <3

Huda Merchant said...

@Anonymous

Thank you, the comment means a lot :)

Huda Merchant said...

@Safiyyah

THANK YOU :D I'm glad, this means a lot to me :)

Anonymous said...

This is great...
I mean the way you focus on little little things..and put those in your writings...
Superb...


I really mean it...
Lots of love..
Ciao.

Huda Merchant said...

Thanks a ton, really. :D

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